Celebrated my err… thirty something birthday on Cinco de Mayo. The week was pretty hectic. Took a red eye from Columbus, Ohio and as soon as I touched down in SF we booked it out to LA to start our Disneyland excursion. I haven’t been at home for over a week. Traveling for work is overrated… unless you’re going to NYC or somewhere tropical. We ended the weekend on a perfect note by spending a few days beachside in Santa Barbara with your Grandma.
*sigh* Another birthday. I’m definitely starting to feel my age. Not necessarily in reference to physical age, but more mental, like another level of awareness I guess. I am def learning more about myself. I think that’s a given now, I’m going to continue to learn about myself each year. I know I talk about it a lot, after all these years I should know this by now. But I supposed that’s a flaw in itself? I think the new theme going forward is follow through and be accountable.
I feel I just started another chapter in my life. This time rather than trying to set so many expectations of myself, I think I have come to terms that I just have to let go. I have no idea what to expect in the next 5 or 10 years, but whatever it is I’ll leave it up to the Universe to guide me down the right path. I think I’ve proven it to myself I can do anything I want. The next stage is to focus on seeing it through.
You are no longer my baby girl =( your growing right before my eyes, something I was not expecting to happen so quickly. I am amazed at how you have so many of my mannerisms; genetics is such a fascinating subject hehe. You are so carefree, talkative, and a clown, very much like myself when I was growing up. Always trying to make people laugh, always staring off into space, always daydreaming, and you love music. The only thing I worry about is that you don’t pick up my tendency to be ADD. Oh look a squirrel.
Looking at you and looking at myself, it’s amazing to see how we transform over time from being so optimistic and carefree to doubtful and cynical. I’m reversing all that by taming the ego and finding my way back to id.
I will try my best to protect you from the cynicism that besets this world. In the meantime, here’s to another thirty years of navigating through life. Here’s to us growing mentally. Here’s to us growing emotionally. Here’s to us growing spiritually. Here is to us growing as a family.